Evolution

It’s raining out there
Clouds fill the sky
I’m struggling in here
Wondering why

Why did she leave?
Will she ever come home?
Why do I feel
So lost and alone?

Why is my heart
Filled with such pain?
How can the clouds
Hold so much rain?

Inside and outside
The storm so intense
Why doesn’t my life
Make any sense?

From the darkness that wishes
The storm would subside
Came a flash of brilliance
My eyes opened wide

The insight that came
From beyond comprehension
All of this pain
Just to get my attention

Teardrops and raindrops
Washed away the facade
I could see clearly
My beliefs were flawed

These beliefs-
What I’d based my life upon
Had been running things
For way too long

Where did they come from?
What makes them so?
These were things
I wanted to know

And so I explored
The beliefs I’d been holding
And how they affected
The life they’d been molding

Some came from anger
Defiance or shame
Some of them served me
Some were quite lame

Some came from parents
Back when I was young
Some gave no clue
From where they had come

Some came from church
Some came from school
One group or another
Imposing their rule

Many beliefs
No longer made sense
And were carried around
At great expense

In letting them go
New life has come
Dark clouds have lifted
Unveiling the sun

With judgements returning
To neutral ground
Limitless choices
Appear all around

This redefinition
Has opened my mind
And opened new worlds
To which I’d been blind

A path has been cleared
To an inner knowing
That guides and directs
As I’m learning and growing

The storm of emotions
The clouds of gray
Helped bring me
Where I am today

And though that union
Has come to an end
I’m proud to call
The woman my friend.

Copyright © 2001 Dan Coppersmith. All rights reserved.

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